In my high school yearbook Im under “shyest person”…fammmm! But it made me think how far I’ve come in building my confidence, self love and self belief. So many opportunities missed, things that I really wanted to do but I held myself back because of my fears and lack of confidence. One of the biggest life changing moments of my life so far was the transition into uni, it was crazy uncomfortable but it all strengthened me. I remember when it came to applying for degrees, I literally fought for my place. I declined all my offers because I got offered alternative courses to the one I wanted. I wasnt about to spend 18,000 on a course I wasnt interested in I was so scared. I emailed the dean like crazy, for a portfolio review; this literally was my only chance to grab a spot on the course. I secured my place a month before uni began. That was a small taste of how thedegree was aboutto unfold- three years of serious graft and I barely even made it through third year; one of the most difficult years of my life mentally which I was about to defer three months before final hand in. But I persevered and I truly believe that everything happens for a reason.
That summer was the greatest, I graduated- even wore a white bodycon dress to the ceremony despite being the most concious of my body I felt great. I had an awesome degree show, collabed with some great artists and friends, was approached by mtv who I worked with thereafter and just kept on creating. The push of those three years shaped me and my approach to my art. Ive never stopped creating despite the down falls Ive had to experienece up to this very day, its naturally for things to not always run smoothly- thats the beauty of the journey. I’ve had times where I’ve questioned what I was doing but I can’t imagine doing anything else. It was and is the only thing that has my heart permanently captivated.
Moral of the story is patience and perserverance is everything and there really is light at the end of the tunnel. I cant even express enough how important it is to allow yourself to move at your own pace, no one is the same, no one has everything sorted. Take in everything around you turn it into positives, learn from experiemces and people, put yourself out there especially if it is out of your comfort zone. Grab every opportunity, its so important and I wish I had the courage to do so all those years back, but theres no time like the present. Push yourself, embrace and enjoy the journey, dont tire yourself out whilst doing so, find that balance and it’ll set you free. Happiness is the end result and you will continue to flourish in all ways.
Keep your head up. Keep it moving.
Embrace and flourish x