Its been a surreal few weeks. A few weeks of emotional, spiritual and mental growth which really stems from a few things I’ve spoken about in my previous blog posts.
I haven’t been very active on social media as of late but this week is a week which hits very close to home, and that is Mental Health Awareness Week.
I’ve mentioned before that I have experienced depression and anxiety, and this still is something that I battle everyday. But I wanted to share how I’ve overcome this and control everyday instances which may trigger these emotions.
It was only June 2015 where I started to feel a lot of weakness; mentally. Which worsened over the course of a few months and September was when I hit breaking point. Prior to this, depression and anxiety was always something that lingered in my life, that fluctuated throughout my teenage years.
During university a few visits to the counsellor made me feel really guilty, opening up to someone unknown in a place where I felt like an outcast. I felt like I was revealing all my secrets, all my hidden thoughts and emotions, I felt exposed. This prompted me to stop visiting the counsellor and instead I battled through my final year, almost deferring a year because of my mental battles.
But I graduated and between then and now, my depressive episodes where prevalent. I never really did seek proper help, nor did I open up much to anyone close to me. Although when I did, moments of relief were apparent.
Back to September 2015, I purchased a journal, which I still write in to this day. That was a huge turning point to me getting better. Not only did I make the move to better expressing my thoughts even if it were on paper, but I also took the initiative to research on the things I was feeling. I knew I didn’t want to stay static within these emotions, and I was lucky enough for the people around me to see that I was going through a difficult time. I was prompted to open up to my brother, my cousins and my best friend. All so dear to me.
Its so fitted that this year, Mental Health Awareness Week has a theme of Relationships as this is exactly what made a difference to me.
I cannot express enough how important it is to connect with the people around you, even when you don’t feel like it. Having a strong support system allows you to keep your negative thoughts at ease, allows you to feel comfortable enough to know that you aren’t alone, and that what you’re experiencing can and will be overcome with the love of those around you.
When I did eventually open up, there was a huge relief within me as I later plucked up the courage to see a therapist. I did so for three months and with no medication, my scores gradually decreased. Its been two months and I haven’t visited since.
Once you build a mental strength within yourself, overcoming hardships is a little more smoother.
My advice, is to never push people away, although at times when you do, don’t punish yourself for it. Take your time to recollect your thoughts and emotions, whether it be by writing, listening to music or delving into a hobby you may have. Even taking a walk helps so much, reading or watching a favourite book or film.
Above all don’t feel like your being judged, instead go with the flow, trust yourself and trust your surroundings, because every step takes you that much further to reaching your goal rather than not doing anything at all.
Embrace and Flourish. We’re all Beautiful.
Paradise Girl x